As I mentioned in my last blog, I have renewed hope that Dr. Gummy can make enough adjustments to tame my shifting foob. Out of everything, that is really is my biggest concern. I can live with a little unevenness as long as they're not sliding into my armpit. But the sliding has got to go!

See here's the thing: Dr. Gummy doesn't really know how bad it is. Why? Because I talked to him about the shifting but I didn't show him. How is he supposed to know how bad it is if I don't show him? He can't. He looked at my chest but that was it. I wish I had actually grabbed the foob and moved it around for him. I wish I had laid down on the table and let him see it move to the side. Instead, I just said the sliding was bothering me. So when I told him Righty falls to the side when I lie down, his response was, "Well that's what natural breasts do." I get his point, but no, natural breasts do not slide nor do they move halfway into your armpit. But he didn't know that's what's been happening because I didn't explain it and I didn't show him. And I wish I had.

Coming back from Eugene I was frustrated with myself as much as anything else. I didn't assert myself. I didn't communicate like I needed to. I don't know why I didn't, but I just didn't. But Bill assured me, "It's not too late. You can show him all this before surgery." He's absolutely right. So that's what I need to do.

I can see why it would be next to impossible for Dr. Gummy to fix small, subtle movements. Our bodies move and skin is elastic, so the implants are going to move around some. So if that's what he thought I was asking him to fix then I can see why he was reassuring me that some movement is natural. In fact, the left side moves around in a somewhat natural manner (well, as natural as an unnatural breast can be I suppose) and that's totally fine. I wouldn't want them to be totally immobile like they were right after my fill anyway (coconut foobs!). But I would think big movements, like the kind I'm experiencing on the right side, could be fixed or at least minimized. I have read about techniques that can prevent implant slippage which is what I believe is happening with me.

And I need to keep reminding myself that expanders suck and the final implants are much better. From everything I hear these kinds of things get fixed in the second surgery all the time. This is the general consensus on the Young Survival Coalition message boards and I need to trust that all those women know what they're talking about. After all, they've been through it.

So yes, I have renewed hope. I'm sure the crazy slipping and sliding is fixable. I just need to make sure I communicate the issue to Dr. Gummy by explaining it in more detail. And I think what I really need to do is get on the table and let it slide, baby, slide!